Movement is a gift that not everyone gets to enjoy. And for that, I am grateful to be given a body that has the capacity to move.
During my dancing days, I witnessed the amazing things my body can do—but also its limits. It came to a point that I pushed myself so hard I tore my meniscus and got surgery. Physical therapy helped me regain the strength to endure and enjoy strenuous activities again.
Just when I thought tearing my meniscus was already rock bottom, I recently got diagnosed with gluten intolerance. The symptoms were silent but they almost wrecked my body inside out. Eczema was my only problem the first two years but the next two surprised me with more: brain fog, insomnia, chronic fatigue, and numbing of joints. It was painful for me to see how my body was slowly debilitating. I felt so limited, more than I used to. Yet, I realized that I was still in control of my body. I had a choice on whether I wanted my body to suffer or not.
Adapting a gluten-free diet was my first order of business. Once my symptoms wore off, I vowed to stick to physical activities that strengthened not just my body but also my SOUL.
I recently fell in love with soulcycle. It wasn’t love at first sight and I have my chronic illness to thank for urging me to give it a few more tries. Now I’m pretty obsessed! Some find it too cult-y but I’m totally here for it! It’s true when they say that soulcycle can change your life. It has totally changed mine! Nothing can compare to the challenge and thrill on a bike. To ride to the rhythm and beat of the music, it always feels like I’m dancing. Best of all, I get to do it alongside an amazing community—a community that uplifts and motivates one another.
When I’m not on a bike, I’m probably at solidcore, in a pilates session, or simply walking around the city. On the days that I rest, I still try to incorporate some kind of movement, even if it’s just simple stretches. Whatever my body needs, I listen.
There are a lot of fitness classes and other activities that I still want to try. I also know that I want to get stronger. Not perfect, just stronger than yesterday. I may no longer have that ‘skinny’ physique I used to have when I was training for dance. But I’m happy and proud to have a body that can MOVE, that screams that I am a fighter, and is aware of the existence of my soul.
I cannot wait to see how my body will change as I evolve because I truly believe that our bodies reflect our lives in a certain period of time. And today I can say that I’m the happiest I’ve ever been ? Here’s to honoring my body and soul with movement AND rest!
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Jul 24, 2019
I am an NYC based content creator, filmmaker, gluten-free foodie, and mental health advocate.